The truth is, it was only as hard as I allowed it to be. It was all in my head. It's about how I thought. I had to change my thinking, my mind. Once my decision was 100% solid, it was easy for me. I had some moments as I adjusted to life of the other side, and I've had some cravings, but I got through them. I wanted this, really really badly. I didn't want to live that way anymore.