Great post! Glad you are here.
As an AAer, I was desperately ill when I began that journey, 28 mo and 1 day ago. I have developed and work to maintain (through habits like number of meetings, daily devotionals and secular readings, a strong network of sober friends and just plain good folks, yoga,.....) and find that as the backdrop of my life, if you will, feeling like I need it or not has become irrelevant because it has gifted me with a quite amazing life.
External support never hurts - might be a good thing to add a program of some kind into your life, since you do mention still needing things to fill the gaps where you used to drink.
Best to you.