You're saying " I feel very confidently that I could safely go out with them, have a couple of drinks SOCIALLY (as opposed to what the best friend looked like last weekend) and also go back to being this normal self the next day that i have recently found, with no problems." This despite that (As Tomsteve points out), not very long ago at all you were at this point...
-I was terrified to do this, but I reached my limit tonight and as much as I want to be done,
-I can't bring myself to just stop, even though I'm desperate for sleep and a clear day.
- I am in such a vicious cycle.
My drinking has risen to the level of screwing up things at my job.
-Then I drink to deal with/forget how I've screwed up.
-Then I screw up more.
-I don't know how to break free.
- I'm drinking more and more, and starting earlier and earlier.
-I know I need serious help
- The difference is they can all control it, but I can't.
-I drink everyday too, and way too much these days.
-A bottle of wine a day has escalated into so much more
This is the insanity of alcoholism. That forgetfulness of the power that alcohol has over us once we start drinking.
You've had a great couple of weeks. You've gone from a point of despair and being trapped on the crazy carousel of drinking to being sober and taking your life back. Only an alcoholic would consider drinking again at this point.
BB
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