Originally Posted by
rayna87 
I feel like if the above-referenced best friend, or even my family, were to want to hang out this weekend, I feel very confidently that I could safely go out with them, have a couple of drinks SOCIALLY (as opposed to what the best friend looked like last weekend) and also go back to being this normal self the next day that i have recently found, with no problems.
There’s no way this can be that easy. What am I missing?
might be missing these facts:
-I was terrified to do this, but I reached my limit tonight and as much as I want to be done,
-I can't bring myself to just stop, even though I'm desperate for sleep and a clear day.
- I am in such a vicious cycle.
My drinking has risen to the level of screwing up things at my job.
-Then I drink to deal with/forget how I've screwed up.
-Then I screw up more.
-I don't know how to break free.
- I'm drinking more and more, and starting earlier and earlier.
-I know I need serious help
- The difference is they can all control it,
but I can't.
-I drink everyday too, and way too much these days.
-A bottle of wine a day has escalated into so much more
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rayna, what happens if you cant make it back? what if you dont have another shot at sobriety?
there are HUNDREDS of threads and posts from people that thought they could return to drinking and be normal drinkers.
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...archid=8271565 https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...archid=8271567
hope ya change your mind. you might not have another chance at recover rayna.