Getting past this small hump in my Sobriety
Hi everyone.
has anyone experienced a phase where what used to be working is starting to feel tedious and not very interesting?
When i started i committed to socialising more, exercising more, doing random activities etc.
now being 54 days in am not finding this at all exciting anymore. Today
i was met with a decisive moment where i was happy or contemplated to go get a drink.
In the past, i really really enjoyed to just sit at my desk, do paperwork or be on the computer and drink. I really enjoyed the solitary drinking lifestyle, this WAS my activity. ..its the truth, i enjoyed it!......BUT
i dont want to go back to it
what other options do i have now if socialising and "making friends" or going to activities is not as hyped up as it sounded at the start? in fact, I am still doing what i was always doing. I am on the computer after work for 8 hours or iam in my shed tinkering away - except the only difference is iam sober.
so looks like this is my life for now, and looks like it always was.
Ive been working like a madman to keep myself busy and out of destructive thinking, but any free time at home i avoid like the plague,
I feel like my drinking has killed my drive for life and its activities. at 54 days all i want to do is drink , and nothing else, i have no interest in much. but i have willpower and my tools and will not drink.
I wouldn't call it a life or death craving, just an uncomfortable feeling like something is missing . That must be what addiction is, your own good life with a uncomfortable feeling you cant settle with anything( only with one thing though.)