daveycrockett

I haven't done anything, no motivation at all. I actually forgot about doing any of those boxes. I haven't been outside at all. Depression has taken control again. Anxiety, depression, and OCD is a tough mix to deal with.

I know why I drink. I drink to try to escape my own mind and thoughts and to dull my senses. I hate the way my mind works and how it thinks. The unwanted thoughts and doing the unwanted rituals control my thoughts and actions. I have a lot of negative thoughts.

Chicken is always a good go to meal. There are so many different things you can do with chicken. Chicken with potatoes and vegetables is a good choice. I've just been microwaving mostly rice and chicken. It's just too much work right now to cook a meal. I had a couple banana splits, they were delicious. I don't feel like eating much, but kind of pick all day long.