Thanks Buckley. I can really relate to when you said about being discontented and anxious when trying to take things to far. Earlier this year I managed two months dry, and my life improved tenfold, things started 'falling into place' and as I become more and more active in doing the things which contribute to better quality of life... I think I took things too far. My sobriety became based on the perfection of my daily routine - work, keeping house clean, exercise.. and I guess its the same side of the addiction coin.. I became dissatisfied, thinking its still not good enough etc. Then came a wave of anxiety/depression which lead to a very bad relapse... Just need to figure out a balance I guess for the next sober period..