Glad you found your way back to us Snufkin!
Originally Posted by
Snufkin 
that’s when denial hits
Recognizing that this will almost certainly happen (again) is a very positive sign. You know there will be some obstacles ahead. Now we need a plan to deal with them. You've got a meeting lined up for today - that's a great start!
You post like someone who wants to get better, you recognize there will be obstacles, and you're making plans to get around those obstacles.
Keep up the great work!
