Yeah I remember feeling like that too WastedLife.
Intellectually I knew I had a choice (at least *sometimes* when I was sober I knew that) but practically I didn't really know how to live my life without drinking.
I had to take a leap of faith, fix what I could and face the rest.
There was a lot of fear and a hell-ton of discomfort...but I took it day by day in the beginning.
I used this place a lot too - every day - and eventually I had a string of sober days behind me, I was growing ever more capable at dealing with unpleasant things, and forever wasn't as scary anymore
I really think if I can do it anyone can
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