I've just called my lawyers and asked to check if there are more court notices for me (I am in the process of resolving my debt issues with banks).
While I am waiting for them to call me back I am really anxious.
And I am trying to moderate my emotions, and solder up, like nothing catastrophic will happen, I will handle it, I shouldn't be that worried, etc.
I am going to change my usual scenario.
I will release any emotion I am feeling without suppressing them which will eventually turn into internalizing a negative pattern.
I am scared? Hell, yeah!
I am scared to the point that my stomach goes into knots and my mouth is dry.
And than another court notice will shut down the world as I know it. And I will feel (again) like I have no control over my life.
Ok. I can't deny this fear.
I am scared.
I am anxious.
I am worried sick.
I am apathetic.
And it ain't fun.