Good job pouring it out! My alkie brain doesn’t want to waste alcohol. It’s more about the addiction than worry over waste I believe. I did the same thing once, and felt much the same way. I never was able to pour out booze, so I gave it away.
The difference between an alkie in a mansion and an alkie on the street ain’t nothing but a mortgage payment. I think you see that, and I’m glad you do.
My brother had a good job, nice home, travelled whenever he felt like it. Now he’s gone. His AV killed him. He never lost his home, never had a dui, never had an issue at work.
Being a “functional alcoholic” is a stage. Some of us find recovery before we progress, some of us don’t. Some of us die there. I don’t know why or how I found recovery and he didn’t.
I’m glad you are finding recovery. I hope you cling to it like the lifeline that it is.