Thanks. Yeah, normally my social anxiety is what causes me to drink. In some ways the only thing that's really changed is that I'm more afraid of dying from cirrhosis now than I am of being socially awkward or alone, etc.
I have been seeing a CBT once every 2 weeks but it's been tough lately with a lot of my money going to sudden trips to the ER or immediate care in a panic. I'm supposed to see her tomorrow.
I asked my GP for something for anxiety a few weeks ago and was prescribed Lexapro and Xanax. I really, really, really did not like the Lexapro's effects so I stopped taking it (I know that's not a good idea to go back and forth on it - I've committed to abstinence.)
I take the Xanax (.5 mg) before bed and it's helped some. I sleep better, I'm getting fewer nightmares and feel more positive in the morning.
None of that seems to make any difference when I get a new symptom or when my liver wakes me up in the middle of the night pulsing. I jump right to full panic mode.