dd,
a thought experiment of sorts:
let's say you decide (or your beast decides?? not familiar enough with this paradigm to know) that yes, in face of a specific calamity, you would drink.
put yourself there, picture it, the calamity, the getting of booze, the opening of the bottle, the first swallow.....
if that is still part of the mindset on what to do in a calamity, will you soon be hoping for this calamity?