fini

no.
why or why not?
not to be flippant, but it really is irrelevant to what happens in my life.
there are those fleeting random thoughts that Jeffrey mentioned, but they are also not relevant.

but i know from my past that there is irrational stuff mixed into these things, and i am not immune to that.

and i have seen, plenty of times in my sober years, that calamities don't result in relapse any more than ordinary stress or a promotion at work or a friendly get- together and feeling left out, irrationally .so i think the emphasis on calamity is misplaced and just a screen for the more obvious " but i can drink if something really baaaad happens, yes??????? YES!!!!!!"