Originally Posted by
dwtbd 
It certainly seems the OP was not /is not comfortable with their internal framing of their recovery.
OP here. Maybe I'm just tired but I don't understand this statement, either. From a couple of very kind folks on SR who have PM'd me, I am seeing things more clearly now. Maybe I will try to do like what Robbie did, and combine AA with AVRT, using my inner strength to guide me this time.
From a Permanent Abstinence Based recovery framing it is perfectly logical to prefer being permanently recovered to perpetually recovering.
I was taught "recovered", not "recovering". The groups are starting to let go of that incorrect term. They use "recovered" but not "cured", because I still can never drink again.
Believing/claiming that one must struggle daily to remain abstinent is really only a self reinforcing idea, not a universal one. And one everyone is free to adopt or dismiss.
White knuckling is a struggle. Abstinence based sobriety is a struggle. True recovery is not.
Putting down the bottle and walking away is as hard as you want it to be.
It depends on one's recovery (no matter which program they follow).