Hey Lipstuck, sending you so much love.....and maybe you could see it a bit differently? It sounds like you are getting better and better at making this new life a permanent choice....with some blips....because we are human.....and every time we fall down, we get back up a little stronger and wiser. A little more prepared for the things life throws at us....just like learning to ride a bike.
Now, I must learn how to ride a bike.....ha. I can't do that.
