Hi I think it’s crucial that in order to stop drinking you have a motivator, something you want even more than your desire to drink.
For me it’s my Phd, it IS worth more to me than my drinking so I’ve stopped drinking - I’d never forgive myself if I messed this up over something as stupid as alcohol.
After that I want an amazing job in a country I love with someone I love. I don’t know if I’ll get that but I’m willing to put in the good work now and hope.
Try to find the thing you love more than drinking until you find you love sobriety more than drinking