Hi Pathwaytofree,
12 steps are off topic for this forum. So we will have to limit the topic to this portion of your post.
I'd like to learn more about how to build the self-awareness of my AV. Is "Rational Recovery" still the main book to learn about AVRT? I get overwhelmed easily and I also have to avoid my OCD setting off, which makes me gather a ton of information without actually processing any of it or putting it into motion.