Day 27 has finished.
Short post today.
Iam hitting some serious cravings. Yesterday was an serious urge. But today was a huge unexpected hit. Probably lasted about 6 hours, i was so tense and in relaxed so I had a day sleep and kept waking from sharp whole body twitches. This normal?
I nearly got wine today I nearly "took the egde off" I was very close, and iam feeling like my sober armour is dented.
But all that hard work would be lost and I would be so disappointed once the euphoria wore off. And tommorow.
What truly stopped me this time was simply my habbit change over this month. I don't want to loose my volleyball game tomorrow morning, and i don't want to loose my gym session for that day either, that mattered more...I thought about getting it tonight, but I just didn't have the motivation and excitement to drive and buy booze, so I slowly moved on and went about my day in my new sober routine.
My only concern is that I can't relax for the last month, iam on a constant edge for some strange reason. It's actually affecting my life at work and in public.
I can't speak to clients as relaxed and fluidly as I used to.
Onto day 28