SagCitrine - big hugs to you, so sorry you are going through this, and you came to the right place, there are a few of us here that had to let “our” alcoholics go.
All active alcoholics love alcohol more than they love their loved ones. It completely takes over all aspects of their lives. You are enough and worthy - you just were unfortunate to get involved with active alcoholic.
Can completely relate to your list of things - I actually had to have a list of “why I am divorcing AH”.
It gets better, I promise
