What's really hard to understand is that when talking with my sponsees, I can compartimentalize and go into sponsor mode so well and really help them. I'm even helping a woman whose sponsor can't deal with her, and I'm able to spend a few minutes telling her what she needs to hear (many times it's a firm "take this to your therapist", "the step work isn't the be all end all" or giving her more detailed step work instructions that she needs.)
Sometimes I amaze myself at what I say. I see that I really get the spiritual stuff and experienced it. The feedback I get from them is sometimes quite surprising, and makes me feel like a fraud because of how crappy I'm feeling right now. How can I so get the spiritual stuff and be a good sponsor yet feel like this?