Anyway, he stalked me day and night on text, made me feel HORRIBLE guilt, I was a bad mother, etc. - then one day when I said "if I'm so awful, why are you trying to get me to stay?" - then he changed it up, and promised he'd help around the house, and that he wouldn't charge me rent, and we could buy a new house and be a family. That he would slow down on the drinking to support me.
I moved back home. We bought the house. I have stayed completely, absolutely sober and have enjoyed rediscovering reading, watching movies, being of service to friends, being a sweeter, better person with my family, and most of all, being very tuned in and a good mother. My son and I are very close.