My inability to simply be myself...
I don't miss my inability to simply, on any and every occasion, to simply be myself. So that now,whether in my environment or online I look for credibility, including my own, in all I meet. Golden rule,'No credibility,no me.'
To the point that I'd rather go through life sober believing I'm an alcoholic. Than drunk, trying to convince myself I'm not.
I spent far to many years doing the latter, I'd much rather be a sober alcoholic, than try to impersonate an alcoholic who is sober.
Much easier that way...