Thank you for the replies. I know I have to do something but I don't think I can. I can't even use the shower until it is cleaned. I get shortness of breath very easy and can't do much. Yesterday I had a pickle spear and some slices of pepperoni. I'm gonna try to eat something today.
I have been using grocery delivery for about a year now. I also use delivery for alcohol. In the past I also ordered pizzas and chinese food. I do see my son every once in a while. He has done a few things for me in the past few months.
I was always a clean person and showered at least once a day. The estrangement is what did me in because that is when all this started.
Last May I did quit drinking for a couple weeks. When I quit I had the dt's. I had hallucinations also. My alcohol consumption is less because it's very difficult to eat or drink anything. I probably still have a chance but I can't do it alone.