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Old 05-11-2018, 07:46 AM
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Carlotta
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It was part of my rationalization and mania and rituals that everything had to be done before I'd let myself start drinking, and I always went to work no matter how sick I'd made myself. These days if I'm tired I leave the house work for tomorrow and if I even have a headache I call in sick. Some of the hangovers I would go in to work with, I'm surprised I got away with it.
I can relate, I have some OCD tendencies and my AV LOVED cleaning (especially the bathtub) and like you, it was part of the rationalization.
Like: "hmmm that bathroom looks a bit dingy, let's pop a beer and clean it. I would actually buffet the tub until it shined "(excuse for another beer)

I am afraid that since I quit, things have not been kept up to such high standards because let's face it, I have zero interest in polishing a tub or mirrors compulsively for half an hour as a sober person. Got more interesting things to do LOL
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