Thanks for the kind words and support. It really helps. Just trying to wait out the evening so I can go to bed and hope I’ll wake up in a better place I realize that may not happen though. I’ve apologized and explained to my bf that I was drinking and that it has become a problem I need to address. He’s still hurt/angry, understandably. I guess there’s not much more for me to do now except focus on getting better. Have a good evening everyone.