So ashamed
Hi everyone. I’ve been lurking here for a long time. I think I posted maybe once over a year ago. I have continued to drink , with some brief periods of sobriety intermixed. Today is probably my lowest point though. I got drunk last night and texted my boyfriend terrible insults and accusations, not based in reality at all and nonsensical. He is pretty hurt and I’m not sure if it can be repaired. I’m devastated and the guilt and shame I’m feeling today is paralyzing. This has definitely been my wake up call to stop. I just don’t know how to deal with the pain of losing this relationship because of my own actions that I would have NEVER done sober. Feeling pretty low. Thanks for listening.