I come on here most days and read all the threads in the secular forum, hoping for a bit more inspiration I guess. My beast is still in control and until I believe I am stronger than it, I guess it will stay that way. It's always saying 'just one more night', you've still got time.
One more thing...
You need to realize that all self-doubt is the Addictive Voice, and not just the obvious messages to drink again. For example, the part I put in
boldface from your message is also the Addictive Voice. Make a Big Plan for lifetime abstinence from drugs and alcohol, set your confidence level at 100%, recognize any thoughts to the contrary as the AV itself, and you will do fine.