Originally Posted by
flyawayfromhere 
I've been trying to force myself to be ready to quit the addiction but it isn't working. There are a million reasons I want to quit but I don't seem to have what it takes and don't know what that might be to actually leave it for good.
Well, in all honesty (and I hate to keep bringing it up), but you are young and there's a reason many of us did not get sober in our 20s (and yes, I know there are many who have - but it's certainly not the norm, especially with AVRT). Most of us didn't understand enough about life and ourselves and the true consequences of our drinking to truly want to stop.
Honestly, if it were me and I were your age, I'd either make a decision to sh*t or get off the pot here. And if you are going to keep drinking, don't torture yourself by coming here. And finally, whatever you do - stay honest. I like that about you!