Hey, it's April here. If you ask how to delete your account on here that's equivalent to please delete it now. I needed a different username anyway though...I need to be super secret. lol
Thanks for the post Freethinking, I'm glad you can understand me and you hit it dead on. I know that the Beast is in full swing, but do I have the will in me to dissociate and fight for sobriety again? I really don't know anymore.
So yeah, I'm living in some sort of 7th level of hell right now. It's either see a doctor for antabuse and campral or read the rest of the book and just decide to stop drinking...if that's possible.
Either way, something needs to happen soon. I can't go on like this...drinking after I say I won't, I feel like I'm worth about as much as the slime at the bottom of a garbage dumpster....and I have to start running a graphics department in about a week.
Anyway, I won't post on this thread anymore until I read the rest of the book. Thanks for everyone's input.