You're being too hard on yourself, April. Yet another thing I do NOT miss about drinking. I used to wake up in the morning in a panic over what I had or had not done, especially on the internet and would then feel anxious all day about it.
Sorry this is off the AVRT topic, but just wanted to quickly say that this is not the place where you need to feel embarrassed or apologize for drinking. You're younger than most of us and I'm just happy you're here.