NewWay,
I think I was in a similar position to you. I thought that maybe the Beast wanted to drink but me, "my conscience", did too. I think on here I started to get told I wasn't ready to quit drinking or it wasn't common for people my age to keep drinking for a few more years. When people started rationalizing drinking for me I got really upset and realized I REALLY did want to quit drinking and that made it easier for me to attribute all desire to drink back to my Beast. I was thinking that "I" really did want to keep drinking but it was of course my AV telling me that. There are truly no benefits to alcohol (for addicts or those abstinent due to previous addiction), except those that are told to us by our AV.
Another book that might help is Allen Carr's book that TU has listed on his profile page. It's not AVRT based but it helps you view alcohol in a different way which is highly beneficial. And yes, definitely get the RR: The New Cure book and read it twice even...