Old 05-15-2012, 01:02 PM
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Stayinfree
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Hi everyone

I'm back for some support as right now I keep having major beast attacks and I can feel my mood getting lower by the day..............this is what would usually lead me to picking up again and I'm feeling damn angry right now.

I've been stopped for some weeks, haven't counted how many, but just today I caught my beast telling me to work out how long I've gone without, just so it can build up an argument for........'see you've been soo good'.

I even sat at the table this evening and told my husband how much I missed drinking, he, of course, said if I started again, I'd to find somewhere else to live.

I realise that it's getting control of my 'I' and I'm trying to claim it back, but I'm struggling.
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