I'm not sure if you can "make" those feelings at will. There are moments in time where I'm excited about going on vacation, seeing a loved one, etc
But those are genuine feelings caused by actual experiences.
I could be wrong but when the AV coerced you into drinking & you have that "arousal" feeling before hand(as described in RR) that anticipation is the Beast's excitement & joy of the upcoming intoxication.
You can feel what it feels & separate from it.
The actual feelings WHEN consuming alcohol are artificial. Chemically induced.
I don't think you can replicate "that" high feeling.
To want to do so would be AV trying to convince you that life is no good w/out "that" high feeling.
I can create positive feelings, naturally through exercise, sexual release, watching comedies, or indulging occasionally in death by chocolate cake
