I read RR several years ago, thought it interesting and kept on drinking at a higher rate. At the time, I just did not care. My life was not a shambles and I enjoyed coming home from work every night and drinking till I passed out.
Last week, I finally had enough. I took this long weekend and did a home detox. I have been re-reading RR and spending lots of time on SR. I feel pretty good now and have made a Big Plan that I will never drink again and I will never change my mind.
Wow! Did I ever get a reaction from the AV in my head. It is still trying to undermine and I really am not sure what to do. AV tactics keep shifting:
"No one can see the future. How can you say never."
"You have tried and failed so many times before."
"You are going to be so bored"
"How about getting your doc to prescribe some Valium to take the edge off"
And on and on...
Does the AV voice ever shut up? I have made a commitment to never drink alcohol again but I am feeling like I am in a white knuckle state at this time. I have a real problem with AA and am not comfortable going that way but could use some support and counsel.