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dwtbd I’m not sure if I would say I ever really achieved the promised relief and or escape, certainly not in a healthy or life affirming sense.
I may miss the promise , who wouldn’t if it were true, yeah? Realizing the promise was/is a lie makes the missing really really small practically non existent , but brains can be weird so once in awhile the promise seems plausible for like a half a nanosecond
I guess for me, I feel like I did achieve that release and escape through drinking, but admittedly in a non-healthy and none life-affirming sense, before my alcoholism progressed. In the moment, it still felt good (I think?), until it felt bad.
I like your point about "the promise". Interesting.