I ended up drinking last night. My murdered friends trial started yesterday and it's so gruesome and disturbing what happened to her, reading about it really rattled me...... Plus my AV was running rampant over reading the book. In full rebellion mode! I sincerely wish I hadn't...... never good to pour beer on top of feelings of grief.
Gonna finish the book and do some introspection. Start putting the tools I'm learning to use. Of all the drugs I've done alcohol is by far the worst and most insidious.