I'm reading the book right now and I realized that for years my thoughts of drinking have been, "You should have a drink." Not "I should have a drink." My mind was already doing it, I just hadn't noticed it.
Reading his book has left me with some questions. One being do I really never want to drink again? Maybe I do. I have many reasons to stop. But I think I need to inspect my AV for awhile with this new perspective before I jump into a Big Plan. I'm sure you will all think this is pure AV but I'm asking myself how bad is my drinking really? Before I commit to a Big Plan I think I really need to consider this though. Is my problem worthy? Only I can really decide. There is a sense of being at odds with myself.
I'm about half way through the book but it is by far the best recovery book I've ever read and I've read a lot of them.