I have been struggling... have drank. I am questioning if I can indeed live a total sober life. I feel like a turkey for laying that out there for all of you. You are not my therapists... maybe I should seek one out. Sorry about that.
I am another one who just can't be so black and white about the issue... shades of grey. And not the shite movie/books which is not about S&M. Master and slave, D/s. I'm sure it's all my AV but I can't guarantee that I will never drink again and never change my mind. I equate addiction to something very similar to a S&M relationship... you can only give away your power if you choose to. No one/thing can Dominate YOU unless you allow them to. It's a two way street. You have to be complicate in that exchange.