It seems SO obvious now I’m not sure how I did it for so long, the typical “I Drink because I’m anxious and I’m anxious because I drink”.
I’m also feeling a very heavy guilt right now thinking about how erratic my behavior has been lately which lead me to this “wow I have a problem and need help moment”. I’m feeling like I may have completely pushed some of those I love so far away because of my drinking that there’s no coming back from it.
I suppose it’s a bit normal to feel a bit alienated and alone at the beginning of all this huh?