https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ml#post3985538 (moving the ????????)
sohard, if i did this right, the link will take you to a thread i started about these questions.
if i understand your question marks correctly, i "get" why you put them there, and am sorry you're in the spot where they came up for you.
i see people who drink again and are following 12-step or AVRT as ultimatelybeing told the same, or at least vey similar, things: if you drink again, you didn't do the program right. or: you didn't really make a BP, no matter what you thought.
i find it all very circular.
not trying to use your situation as a jumping off point for rehashing this old thread, but think you might find it interesting and it might give more diverse input in response to your question marks.
wondering, too, where you are at and how you see yourself proceeding from here on?