Originally Posted by
Sohard 
I drank 4 glasses of wine last night after almost 5 months sober. I got great job news. I wanted to "celebrate", which was messed up since the only reason I got the new job was bc I'd been not drinking and instead pulling my life together. I'm scared and disappointed. I thought I'd made my Big Plan. Now what?
Now what? So what? I assume you stopped at four because you wanted to. You valued sobriety more than continuing. You may not be abstinent but you can still live a sober life.
Don't shame yourself, live and learn. Experience is the teacher that gives the test first and the lesson last. :-)