(((((GrantMeSerenity))))))
I am so sorry for the abuse you have endured.
The abuse was not your fault - not in any way whatsoever, dear one.
You are valuable and worthwhile.
You need and very much deserve the services of the crisis center. Please tell your husband how you are feeling; please ask him to take you there.
You are such a sweet person, GMS.
Please try not to let the wrongs of others continue to hurt you, dear one.