You have to want sobriety more than alcohol (or whatever your addiction is). After a week of total misery in my sobriety I started looking at my triggers. Once I recognized them I started to plan ahead of them on things to do. My husband still drinks everyday and it was hard seeing him drink every night but I got myself busy doing other things. It is so hard to beat this but I know you can do this and you will feel so much better about everything! Come here often and read and post and chat. That is something that saved my ass more than once! Hang in there friend, you got this!