Okay. Thanks for the thoughts. I need to start actually practicing AVRT (as opposed to just really liking it and having it appeal to me). That's like saying I believe in healthy eating and exercise, but then living on mozzarella sticks and vegging on the couch but expecting myself to miraculously lose weight and tone up. I guess it won't be as easy (obviously) as just believing AVRT makes sense. It's an action. I don't think I really got that at first.
This is my first real and last quit... it's amazing how much information there is I never heard of or that regular society does not discuss. I won't be a statistic.