YES!!! This is how I feel and how I am thinking!! I have not been wanting to go to meetings anymore bc I don't want to/feel I need to etc...but I am made to believe if I don't go I will drink. I don't NEED to do anything not to drink...except not pick up. That I can do.
Like in my post today about how I compared my recovery of an eating disorder to AVRT. I go about my daily business and eat like a normal person...hardly ever thinking "I'm a recovering anorexic". It is a non-part of my life.
Today I was boating with family and everyone was drinking. I had ZERO desire to drink bc I'm a non-drinker. It seems so simple and I have such a sense of freedom thinking this way. AA helped me tremendously the first few months. My meetings were wonderful and I couldn't have asked for a better group of people. I have nothing but praise for my local AA, but it's not what I am seeking anymore. I did need the daily support in the beginning, but now I feel it's time to move on.