Stewy forgive the pun....but it's time to stop stewing.
No amount of thinking wishing or hoping is goign to turn the clock back - and if you're really honest the relationship was not that great anyway by the end.
I know it hurts and it's hard to move on but I'd hate you to miss your todays cos you're stuck looking back at yesterday.
This won't be your last ever relationship I'm confident of that.
But theres other relationships you need to focus on now - chiefly the one with yourself, but also the relationship with your daughter and your parents..
Wallowing in self pity does you no service Stew - you need to get busy living, man.
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