I'm guessing your life is much more pleasant now you have moved on - at least relatively speaking?
My life and that of my kids is 500% better since we moved on. Even tho I came out of the marriage with nothing financially, ended up in rented with my disabled sons and am disabled myself, life is so, so much happier. Just not having to deal with the crap everyday and negotiating ways of staying married to someone who didn't care either way as long as he could drink is amazing. It's been 4 years now and I am still single, living life on my terms now. I stayed 20 years with my exah. I regret not leaving sooner tbh.