I like to think that having depression/anxiety is actually a gift. In our depths of despair we also learn to appreciate the small moments of life as they happen. Have an ability to deeply connect with others with an astute understanding to feelings.
Most of us alcs stem from self medicating, perhaps why this forum has some of the nicest people around.
I rather think of the "normal" people as being the crazy ones, when you see how they live, fake banter, shallow talk, you'd be surprised to find out how many are empty.
Dont wish to be "normal". Embrace sobriety as being one hell of an exclusive club, with the worst initiation of all time.