could you try AA/NA it could help you a lot ...i had a few blackouts in my drinking time one i went to the pub drank like a fish then i had a blackout according to witnesses i punched someone i dont remember anything of this at all my mother is an alcoholic she had blackouts and i knew i needed help so i decided to stop there and then yes i went back to drink a few times more but am now 30 days sober thanks to 12 step programs